When any action comes from love, healing within is natural. When stuck in fear, what is feared may actually be realized. In contradiction, to fully feel fear is different. That allows it through, which is a true blessing. The resistance to fear is what keeps the emotion trapped, enhancing the experience with no way out. To love the self in fearful moments allows the energy, the love being like a soft buffer, urging the emotion on and out. A letting go of intensity can then take place, without attachment or further ado. Fear, so often, is nothing but the imagination of what could be, not a mirror of actual events. Can be at times, but more often than not it is a total illusion, only created within the mind. To open and soften and feel fear fully, is indeed a momentary process. Freedom and light awaits, every single time, as the breakthrough is complete.

That is my direct experience.

The Ego is sneaky. Its obvious game is an egocentric one. Hurtful actions and selfish moves. Then again, it may also convince me that I'm acting from the freedom of Soul, even when I'm not. The Ego may sacrifice the beauty of who I am in order to give, all to feel worthy. The Ego may do a lot of good, create great things, entertain, lead and make peace, and it is still not an act of freedom. It is a way to avoid feeling something. The snarls of Ego are many and the only way to know my inner truth, is to fully open. To allow games, strategies, hurt, pain and/or anger to come forth, and then see what remains in its wake.

 

The Soul can do all of the above, but without being attached to the outcome. The Soul is happy to fully shine and will celebrate others as they do the same, without an agenda or condition in place. The power of Soul will love, unconditionally and fully. Honesty is spoken, but with no need. Integrity comes naturally. A sense of being fully here, each moment of every day, is a sign of living a life from Soul. 

On the outside things may not differ a great deal, but on the inside it will. And ultimately many things will change. Because to live a life from Soul, with the Ego as a passenger rather than the driver, it is (to me) a life of uttermost freedom. The Ego will be there, say it's piece at times, but with awareness I can see and penetrate the game quite soon. Gently I move back to the truth of who I am. The Ego needs my love, but not my attention. The Ego has to be there, but will no longer drive.

And so the journey continues...

Our own needs has to come first. Not from an ego place, but from a natural place of care for oneself. To nourish the energy, body and emotions of that which we truly are, can only lead to a cup so full it overflows. Naturally. Of its own accord. Because a healed heart will speak of peace. A healthy body have energy to spare. A free mind will speak soothing words, uplifting those in need. Emotions felt and honored prevent judging, as - over and over - feelings are allowed to move through. Light may be find at its core, without striving, without force, every time. An expression of love in every breath, effortless like a flowing river. 

What a wonderful journey to be on!

As my surrender goes deep enough, I fall into softness. My being is letting go. Nothing has to be controlled from here. Trust is within reach. A profound acceptance welcomes an inner joy that just is. An opening, into each moment. This, rather than achieving anything. At the same time, the joy of moving patiently towards a goal is part of that freedom. Without striving. Without the need to prove anything. I sense this, but am not fully there yet. Here in India, in the company of such gorgeous allowing souls, my every cell wishes to ease the tension of holding on. The Journey of deep inquiry and healing continues, and I completely welcome the fire of it. 

This is something I've thought of lately:

It's great to be able to laugh at ourselves. To put some humor into daily life can surely take the pressure off at times. However, when humor is used as a means for protection (or on the expense of somebody else) I find it frustrating. Hurtful even. So many say " they're only joking" or "that's just them" or "they didn't mean anything by it." See, I don't get that. If it doesn't feel right I nowadays say a big fat NO to such jokes. It usually means that a person is protecting themselves anyway, simply by throwing a silly joke around. 
Then again, boundaries have to be set with love. Words have to be spoken with integrity and clarity, not force. I've learned that, too. To be assertive is so different from being aggressive, as well as discernment is different from being judgmental. It's not what we do, but how. When humor brings us together, I am happy to laugh. When it puts a wall of separation between people, I am not.

Love to the world!

To shine as our true selves is not necessarily an easy thing. Influenced by society, our upbringing and mainstream media, we are often molded by outer circumstance, by our own interpretation of the world around us. To truly find oneself, to go within is essential. To still the mind. Because to be present and aware takes us away from judgement and offer a clear pathway to freedom. Clear, but not always easy. To me it means letting go. Simple, but at times very hard to do. In fact, it takes a lot of courage to explore the wast universe we have inside. The willingness to heal and abandon old opinions and ways, may be required. Our safety strategies may be severely challenged. My own experience of finding our core is the same as seeking our basic innocence. To shed the layers of ideas and beliefs we have covered over the shining diamond that we are. It is a priviledge. Because to love ourselves and others with honest acceptance and clear integrity, is within reach. Our soul is like that diamond. To uncover its beauty we have to go deep since the layers of pain may reach through to other lifetimes. Fears which never left our deepest memory, imbedded in our cells. This is my direct experience. Then again, since cells regenerate there is always an opportunity to clear such blockages. Simple processes can bring us there and back again, transforming the energies at our very core. 

To once again, truly shine

We were born free, conscious, open and aware. The eyes of an infant seems to flow from one object to another, from one face to another, as if they naturally see everything in between. The connection. The light. The vibration of life. Their innocence is completely non-judgmental and has natural integrity, expressing self without restrictions or any protective games. I suggest that this is possible all through life. If we are brave enough to re-ignite this kind of love and trust in our hearts. It will appear slightly different in the expression of an adult. Then again, not. Our protective nature is born out of wounds. The ones we carry and yes, it may serve us at times. As long as we are aware of the illusion. As mature men and woman we may believe in different things, live different lives, but in the end we are connected through this infinite divinity that we once were. That we still are. The lesson is to heal and let go, just to find that in our very core, we are the freedom we seek.