There are moments in life when we doubt ourselves. Well, most of us do, at some point or another. Or so I believe anyway. In my experience it's not the fact that we do this that is the problem. It is how we act that matters. I've found there is a way to be at peace with doubt. It's possible to just sit with it. Let it be. What is beneath can then begin to shine through and doubt, so beautifully, can turn into enough clarity to move forward.
Recently I was in a conversation regarding work where I felt unsure. What I did was allowing space to really listen to the other person, acknowledge her suggestions and accept where she came from. Since I still felt doubt I gave myself the most precious thing I had in that moment: time. I did this by asking if I could ring back. As I hung up I observed and felt any emotion that arose in me. I also spoke to a friend and colleague (who is involved with the situation) and soon more understanding came through. After also feeling my body, recognizing what the situation had triggered in me, I was able to overcome my uncertainty and be clear. I rang back and spoke from this place, with appreciation for our negotiation and for both of us, for who we are. No judgement was needed. No fear was acted out as defensiveness (which can happen) nor was the urge to escape. It felt honest, so doubt fell away. And I let go. The rest is no longer up to me, so to speak. Still with these events ahead of me, I can now ride on top of the wave. Let everything just unfold, as it will.
Freedom is yet again found...
