Wednesday 6 May 2015

Want to have little to do so I can do the things I really want to do, and it's happening. Creating the life I want, step by step. Daily tasks get done with more ease, the things I don't enjoy so much. I set aside time for the things that make me thrive. I love my family. I'm married to the perfect man for me. This is about my creativity. My juice, my spark, my inspiration. I wouldn't be able to embrace it f I didn't have family around, which is ironic. It means less time for being creative, but it is great the way it's set up. This is the life I wish for my kids as well. Not my journey, but theirs. I hope they find their sparks, over and over again. I hope they'll be filled with inspiration, to do what they're really passionate about. I hope they take responsibility for it to unfold, too, which, I have learned, is a big key. Co-creators as we all are, no one makes us live a life we don't want to live. To embrace our gifts may take courage, because it may seem that there's no money in it. Depends what it is, of course, but it may be the situation for some. Then again, to have a job year in and year out that makes a person miserable, it's not an option for those who wants to live a life of being fully alive. Seeking opportunities means being alert, not lazy. Finding our way means staying open, not stuck in fear. The heart will lead the way so the mind can make it happen, and the soul can naturally flourish.

This is my thought for today.

Thursday 30 April 2015

Imagine if we are created in the image of our greatest self, and that this part is what we on earth call God!? Not necessarily a religious God. For some it can be, but it's not what humans has created in terms of fighting others in the name of their God (whatever name is used for it). What if we all are an aspect of this ultimate light and love. Connected to a divine spark, alive in the very core of our soul. What if, if we stop and listen carefully to our heart, we will find a sense of peace, connected to something much larger than our small self. We may sense that we are part of a bigger picture, understanding that perhaps we have chosen this life we live right now. To learn. To grow. To develop as beings. Then, when our life is over, we may find ourselves in the eternal vastness once again, a place of home in which we dwell and evolve after we have passed over. What if we could see that we are part of this vastness all the time? If we healed enough to nourish one another rather than fight others for what they believe, then perhaps we can begin to experience harmony on this earth. No one has to believe what I have written above, not by a long shot. But if you accept, if you have the integrity and compassion to see others for what and who they are (and see yourself in the same manner) then you already know the power of love. I feel the other side. The light, the angels, at times I sense loved ones who have passed over. My experiences speak for themselves, therefore I believe it to be true. In the end of the day, though, what matters most is how we treat one another, how we treat ourselves, the animals and this beautiful planet we live on.
Honor your journey and honor the journey of others, and in that, I believe, we can find peace. 
Sitting here still
comfortable
before this fire
twirling flames of promise
a soothing warmth
beyond the roles I play
I am embraced
I am held
by silence
I am complete
and free
in vastness
in an ocean of waves
in this
only here
breathtaking
easy
easier than being involved
no needs
no demands
only this
the light of home
in this moment
with the angels
ready?
for what?
I dive within
conscious
and feel love
because...

Monday 27 April 2015

There's a point in the core of the belly, sort of below the belly button and inward, that I've been very aware of lately. After the intense and deeply healing seminar I attended in February this year, with the specific theme of "visionary leadership", I felt energy shift through the emotional healing I went through, resulting in a wider opening of this precise area of my body. This opening has become wider since then and what I'm experiencing now, daily, is downright amazing. Like a profound connection to the universe as a whole, while still being a tiny tiny speck in the vastness of it all.

Watching the movie "Interstellar" brought me there, as well as yesterdays journey process where my awareness went straight to this point. Anyone who've gone through a physical journey knows about the part when "the vehicle moves through the body." Mine went straight to the belly and was quickly brought into a rapid spin, in a sort of fast moving spiral. Quite intense, I must say. As it slowed down I saw an opening. A strong image of the night's sky, filled with stars, appearing before my inner eye in a still, yet vivid way. Next minute I was part of it, feeling one with what I saw. A rubber band held me back, though, until I could clear the old emotion, from 3 months of age, which was actually my father's emotions, feelings of unworthiness that I unknowingly had taken onboard. Forgiveness came about and the letting go that followed was subtle, but strong (if that makes sense). What a wonderful contradiction. 

Then today, funny enough, I came across an article about that exact point in the body. In the article it was called "the brain in the belly", explaining it as a link to wider and deeper wisdom and also to our inner gut feeling. It had a name in Japanese, hara I believe it said (or something close to that). It also said that in the Japanese culture, when there's a sense of knowing, often they point to the stomach (this part) not their head.

Interesting. Very interesting. And so the inquiry continues...

Tuesday 21 April 2015

What has come up a lot for me lately, are strong messages of the power and ability to stop. It's spoken of within the work that I do. It seems to pop up elsewhere. Stopping is not collapsing or giving up in any way, but a feeling of a complete pause. The sensation is felt in the core of my torso, like a dazzling stillness, a clear sense of no movement at all. It's not an empty moment, not by far, but a highly alert one. Including the so often busy mind, this stillness seem to firmly calm all thought. 

As the soothing breath finds the pulse of my heart, I remain a little longer than anticipated, just to find an opening. Reminding me of flower petals, ready and ripe, the one I am may carefully open to the light. Leaving fears and inner games behind, I quietly thrive. Freedom may walk in, like a loved one who never actually left. Joy may arise, a strong sense of oneness overwhelming my senses. Sitting with someone in this way, as they perhaps experience intense emotions, is no less than divine. The embrace, carrying a delicate mystery of existence itself, seem to naturally serve the moment. Not by doing, but by simply being. It's like a space in between, a moment of no time in which all acceptance and potential lies. Much bigger than the being I am, it appears to expand out. To all that is. Tentacles of life's greatness, always reaching every corner. If I allow them. This is my direct experience. Words can gently float in and out of this stillness, away from the thinking mind, a direct connection to a deeper part of the soul. Healing becomes simpler from here. There's room to move, to flow, to let go. The exquisite power of being fully present, the only place from which we truly exist, carries a truth of that precise moment. 
The invitation to stop is whispering. In the midst of life's busyness, it's calling me. Home to myself, to the universe and every living being there is. Vibrating beautifully with life, there really is only now.

Wednesday 15 April 2015

A dialogue between people has two conversations. Rarely do they connect as one, but as they do, what is said is aligned with the truth of that moment. This may happen in both listening and sharing, as opinions and agendas fall away. In the first scenario words may arise from a need to fit in, please, control, conform, impress, connect, suppress, dictate, judge, win, gain, give, support, nourish or lead. Phew. The ego has so many places to land. Our deeper voice is not like that. It comes from a vast place of presence. From there, we may share from our emotions or from direct insight, as a current experience of a larger awareness, not from our limited ego. Tears can flow, anger can arise, laughter can fly wild. Not containing a label, it is expressed with a sense of inner knowing. Knowledge is based on the already known, but knowing is what's real right there and then. The self is a vessel for the expression, not the owner of it. And so we become a vehicle for wisdom rather than knowledge.

Imagine if we spoke and communicated from this place all the time. There's a word for it in India - Satsang. It means "in the company of truth." To sit in a group of a few or many, when whoever speaks is invited to do so from a place of inner freedom and authenticity, it is so liberating. I've experienced this many times. It is amazing. It tends to open the heart to what we are truly made of - Love. Peace comes if we see ourselves and others as we are, if we accept differences rather than force a separation from others by judging. This opens the heart, which the world needs so much more of.

This power is in our hands.

Tuesday 14 April 2015

The realm we live in is really just a playground for us, all the souls who have chosen to take form on Earth. This is a fantastic place to learn, to fulfill our purpose, to love and grow. Amazing how we complicate things, us humans. We get wrapped up in the game of it, which may kill the inspiration of spirit, suffocate it in the dense illusion of matter, a blanket over the spark which brought us here. Healing, love, laughter and letting go, as well as allowing pain, fear, hurt etc, will funnel us back to the core of who we are, every single time. It's easy to be so serious about life. As we know, it will end one day in this form. We will probably be sad on our death bed if look back and find that all we did was being serious and bogged down by the details of life. Rich or poor. Sick or healthy. Happy or sad. There are miserable people in every arena, as well as joyously open ones. It's amazing how that inner joy really doesn't depend on outer circumstances. Someone may say it's easy for me to say who have a great home, a family who loves me, fantastic kids, a wonderful husband, passions, security. Then again, that is precisely why I can say it. See, I've had moments of feeling useless, worthless, not confident, so afraid and restricted, despite having all of that. I had to learn to love myself in order to appreciate the richness of life, because the things or people could never fully do that. Then when I began to truly heal, an immense gratitude for all the gifts I'm surrounded by, began to rise. Like bubbles of joy in my heart and consciousness. A wonderful life, in all its aspects, begins with that spark, that open heart of who we are.

Wednesday 18 March 2015

The power of manifestation!

We are all creators of our lives, but it is not a power coming from the thinking mind. Ideas may be nourish there, but the energy of our creations comes from a much wider and deeper place. In my experience, the delicate balance between clear vision and letting go makes such a difference in our ability to manifest. To try and control the outcome may actually propel us away from it. To see it, feel it, envision it, even smell it, but then let go and allow, it opens the channel for the mysterious force of life itself, meeting our wishes in the best possible way. We may have to look ourselves in the mirror at one point, removing obstacles we have internally put in the way of us creating what we wish for. So healing may take place, if we embrace it, just to open for the wonder we have so beautifully envisioned. It may not appear in the way we thought it would, either. If not, it will most likely be something better. Keep ears and eyes open. The key is to be clear and detailed, and then let go. 

This is what life has taught me.

Saturday 17 January 2015

In the midst of tiredness something so divine, something exquisite, may be effortlessly found. For me, in this very moment it is brought here by birdsong. Clear soothing notes, touching my depth. Traveling through shifts in the wind, it feels near. I catch my breath in awe, stopping, allowing. The stillness is profound. My soul is alive and shining, like the sun, all while my body needs rest. How often haven't I judged it as wrong, to do nothing. When, very likely, it is in such a state we can truly recharge our batteries. 

And the emotions, like strings on a guitar. If we forget to play our song, we may get lost in the rush away from it. If we play too hard, it may be noisy and terrible to the ear. But if we take our time. If we play the notes with care and focus, with openness and spirit, we may find a beautiful song at our fingertips. So much so that we melt, embraced by its glorious vibration. Intense at times, unbearable in moments, but never ever ruthless. A melody, a potential, reaching through to the core of our hearts, where healing and light is forever real. 

What a blessed life.

Tuesday 13 January 2015

There is a way to look at the world, which is common. A gaze and energy, seeing through our own filter and history, our beliefs and our experiences, good or bad. Years of information gathered and we meet the world from this place, which can hurt or it can serve others and ourselves. Quite well, too. 

Then there's the wider way. 

As the eyes and heart really opens. As a sense of oneness is felt into the core and, more importantly, as what we sense is trusted, a delicate "knowing" may arise from the depth of our soul. Larger than the body/being/person that we are in this life, it's a connection to the divine. The bigger picture may then be seen and felt for what it is, something which can trigger resistance and fear in others. Many amazing truths can be expressed from this place, but it does require integrity, not to mention a deep sense of responsibilty. Such capacity has to be used well. 

An open heart allows it all in. The clear ability to distinguish between energy that just is contra the energy we are leaning on to form an identity and persona, is forever potent. Intuition is the key, not the thoughts from the thinking mind. There are traps because arrogance can play with anybody in such a state, rudely bringing thoughts of gain into these purer parts. It may think we are more or better because we know and see, or it may deny such magnificence. Both born out of fear. A deep love of self may save us, so the ego can't take control. Then again, the journey of any being is perfectly imperfect as it is, even when we sway from this "ultimate path." Our choices serve as reminders, that we are forever free to walk this earth according to our free will. As long as we are willing to meet the consequences of our actions. Our choices are always our own, but with an understanding of the divine - which we are so beautifully in touch with if we allow it - we may choose the higher road more and more. As we do, we may find that we move forward as one. The soul can deliver messages from this place on a basis of sharing, not gaining. On the basis of true trading, not profiting. A way to enhance, not break away. 

And so love can heal the world...